I wonder . . .

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1. What does your first name mean?
Sapling, young tree. :) Hebrew.

2. What does your middle name mean?
Um. No middle name. <.<

3. What about the last name mean?
Either tulip or covering for women's hair in Romania.

4. So, if you were to put the meanings of all your names together, what would it say?
Tulip tree or, um, haircovering trees? @_@

5. If you'd been born the opposite sex, what would your parents have named you?
I have no idea, and I probably shouldn't ask. They had enough troubles picking up my name. ^^;

6. Names I like?
Maya. Which is supposed to be water in Arabic. Or. Which means light. Tal, which means dew. o.o Na'ama, which means 'she who delighted'. And Noy, which means beauty. I also like Geshem, which means rain. o-o


And Nee-chan . . . my father's name is Joseph! O_O Called Yossi by everyone, but his name is Joseph. o-o

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You know what I'm proud of? Of the fact I managed to make people on #soulriders to call me by my name. Most of the people there hide their names. I make them call me Netta. ^_^ Even if they don't call me Netta, they're aware how I'm called.

Neat. ^_^

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Phew. Daylight Savings ahoy! @_@

One hour forward. Fuck. It changes all of my internetic relationships. @_@ Gotta remember new hours. :\

And I currently can't sleep. ;_;

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I'm completely down-to-earth!

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

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Yes. More quizzes. Just a day like this. Now, SLEEP.

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Something I wrote for One Word:

Pepper is something I always liked. I always liked how it burned. It hurt. I never knew why, but I liked it. I still do. Maybe I just like to hurt myself, and that's my way. Maybe I'm me. Maybe pepper is me.

Maybe.

Yay. Bloggage all over again. =D

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Wow, cool. Someone I don't know lined to me. o_O sandraelee.

Hm. I got rid of about 36 gigs off the computer. Moved then to Dad's server. <_<;;

Cut my nails. My fingers look shortish now. ;_; Not used to see then like that. I think the last time I cut them was in October. ;;>_> They're naturally long and pretty . . . *_*

It's been decided for me that I'll take a break of eight days in Passover. I'm happy about it. I didn't take a nice vecation ever since the beginning of October. I'm planning on sleeping a lot, preferably at friends', buy clothes, go to celebrate the holiday with my grandfather . . .

About the war, I really stopped caring. Looking in the news for something like Iddy's unit. I sent him the letter two days ago. Four A4 pages. Added USA on the envelope. :\ Gave Nee-chan my address, she gave me hers, all's well.

At some point, you just realize that no one else is important but you. If you want to be mentally stable here, you understand that everyone lives for himself, his closest family, and closest friends. It's just not healthy to start crying and mourning everytime a bus is blown. It hurts people to stop to care. But it's a normal process the brain starts.

Living my life, just like every other day . . .

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Heh.


Red: Red: Aren't you the romantic? Life is poetic. If you don't already, write poetry, you're good at it.


You're An Intellectual!
You can always be found reading or on the computer.
People always come to you when they need
information. You don't really care about love
at this point, your only goal is to improve
your mind. After all, knowledge is power!


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Uhm. I ignored the sexual fetish one. >_>

And the Utena.

And the Shakespeare. :P



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Me!

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Warning, long bloggage ahead.

"This is because geography is as useless as shit and boring to boot. No offence to any geologists who may be reading this."

Took no offence, 'Rat. I don't think it's useless. You like history. History depends on the geography of the area. To know the nature of what happened, you have to know *all* the factors. It may be boring . . . Even very boring. Point is, it's been taught almost everywhere on the planet. Why? I don't know. It's probably there to answer to a couple of my 'why's. But it is, and it means it has some importance. Somewhere. Don't burn a bridge before you even cross it. As a matter of fact, I recommend you not burning bridges at any point. But that's kind of hard. But try. You have no idea what you may miss in the future. I know that when I decided not to go to a normal school I burned some of mine. I also can't regret- too late.

My advice? Get B's, some A's and a couple of C's.

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Today, *again*, my father decided to explain to someone about his schooling theory. Separating boys from girls. Sure, it makes sense. No stereotypes around. It'd give the girls a chance in being actually good in the sciences and maths, and the guys to be better in the humane {err, the history, geography, literature stuff . . .} subjects. It also helps to decrease sexual tension in higher classes of some sort. Of course, it requires a lot of things from the teachers, students . . . and the people who pay. o_O; So I guess it'll stay just in religious schools and private schools, where they might be doing it wrong. I don't know. I learned in public schools all of my life. And in some places and classes, not just during sports class, there should be separating. Hell, in sports class we were still with the boys until the sixth grade . . . which was good in some ways. Like, girls were not underestimated. In some way we were- the teacher'd let us pass if we did less, but she required mostly the same. And the one who was the best at sports was actually a girl from my class. She was also good at maths. And other random subjects.

Oh, Israel's government thinks about stopping the junior highs from working. Add them to the high school or to primary school. Good thing, I say. At twelve you're too young to be in high school. But at fifteen you're too old to be in primary school.

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I like the Irish mythology. Can't stand the Japanese.

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Td, I did not forget you. I will respond to it later. Tired, I have to wake up early, it's late, and it's pretty long as it is. ^^;

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Hm. Found a cool warblog. L.T. Smash. Quite amusing, if you ask me.

I browsed yesterday through my closet. Found about five long sleeved shirts, and one pair of stretchy jeans-alike. Good for emergency clothes.

My birthday cactus {a.k.a Iddy} has grown in about two centimetres in a month. I might be watering it too much. The letter is growing. Tdei gave me a big paragraph. I didn't write it, I just printed it. After one ruined envelope, though, I managed to even write Iddy's address properly.

I guess I didn't sleep well this night. I got up with the inability to really move my neck. >_<

Ho well. ^_^

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I miss Iddy.

I really, really really miss him.

I even named my birthday cactus Iddy. @_@

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Did someone say drastic mood changes? @_@

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Wrote a letter to Iddy. If you want to tell him something, tell me on AIM, MSN, IRC or even in a comment. ^_^ I want to send it tomorrow or the day after, but I guess I'll collect all the 'get back alive's. ^_^

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Self-esteem problems?

Me?

No -fucking- way.

^_^

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Hm, comments are gone.

Happy Purrim, poeple! ^_^

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Although my dear lil 'Rattie-chan wrote about me being his lackey, he forgot {I know it wasn't on purpose, sweetie!} to mention he is also my lackey . . .

He claims to have the veto. I used the same trick he used on me and made him admit that I hold the veto and am able to give it to him. @_@ But won't. So I have the veto, and I say that I'm his lackey as long as he's my lackey!

Kwokie, Tarrie, care to show us your workplace relationship? ^_^

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I have a lot of things to say . . .

But I don't know how to say it- and from where to start it.

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I hate goodbyes. ;_;

Too sentimental. Well, bye, I'll tell you how it's been in the trip. ^_^

*glomps all*

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I'm happy. No matter what I do, I always return to that happy state. I guess everyone can see it . . . which is good, I guess. But I don't feel happy about the fact that I'm happy. It's so strange for me to actually feel happy. . . so when I feel some sort of happiness for more than I think I should, I feel uncomfortable with it.

Everytime I'm happy, I try to change it back to depression. I guess I feel I don't deserve to be happiness. Okay, okay, before you jump, I know it's bull. But I can't help it. That's just how I feel. I also know it'd end, and that I'll be dragged {or maybe I'll drag myself, who knows} back to depression. And after everyday that I feel good with myself and my surrounding, I know it'll be longer and harder.

With other people I'm optimistic, with myself I'm pessimistic. No, I don't think it's strange. It's as natural for me as breathing {which isn't natural to me these days. Gotta learn how to breathe, but you get the point}.

Now I don't know myself anymore. I act differently than I used to. I'm happier. I'm hyper, I talk a lot, I reply when I have something to say {I rarely talked back} and if I met one of you I'm sure I'll be literally glomping you. I'm not used to be acting like that!!!.

Sure, I'm as tactless as ever. And I sort of act the same. . . but when I do things, I don't know even how to explain it.

The bottom line is that I don't like to feel the depression around the corner. :(

On a side note, I somehow discovered that 'Rat got a cold. Feel well, Rattie-chan.

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Why do I find it so easy lately to lose control after I spent all my life {aslmost} succesfully avoiding it?

I also want to lose control. But at the same time, I don't.

There's no point in telling that Awfully Important Secret. It's pointless. It has no meaning.

It's stupid, it's not logical. . .

Oh God. @_@

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Hm.

I agreed today to babysit a girl sometimes at nights, i.e, to sleep at the parents' house with her. o.o;; I get money for it and everything. o.o

Well, I guess that's my first job? XD I just think I need to be with her alone once to see how it goes. If it goes okay it's great. They'll drive me back home in the morning. And I'll get the money. And I'll be with the kid! O_O;;;

Now, we just need to get to the matter of the date. When the parents go out at night until late I stay with the kid. ^_^

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Miscalculated time,

Going back to sleep.

@_@

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Lately I'm whistling. o.o I used to suck at that, but I think I improved. I can reach higher and lower notes, and it helps to learn to focus and train the way I breathe, and it's fun. . . so I whistle. ^^

And my brother threteans me everytime I whistle/sing when he's around. o.o

How does he expect me to get better, huh? @_@

The idiot can't recognize a real talent even if it stood in front of him! And he sees the talent every day!

ME!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

*plans to wake up at six tomorrow morning to catch Rattie-chan at around six thirty. o.o*

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